So

I just realized that I begin 99.9% of my blogs with "So"...I'm gonna work on that. Two finals down, one to go. Micro was all right, psych was very easy, anatomy shouldn't be too bad. I can't believe the semester is over with all ready! I won't say it went by quickly because it didn't. I look around here and feel like I've lived here for years, that I've known the people I see for years. I am so blessed with my friends here though. They are so encouraging and so loving; we have so much fun every day laughing at ourselves, it's so healthy. I can't wait to be home, but I feel torn. I am going to miss my friends SO much...There isn't really anything new to report but I wanted to write anyway. 24 hours from now I will be at home, probably watching Janae's christmas concert!

my mother

So this weekend we were out at a club and I left my phone in my car. When I got back I got a text message from a random number saying "hey guys, i just wanted to let you know that my mom died tonight at 5:30, please pray for me" and I started to panic. I called the number but didn't recognize the voice on the voicemail. Today I found out it was a dear friend at school, Christabel. And I never even met her mom and I started crying. I am still crying. To be at one of the scariest and most important times in one's life and to not have your mom, your mommy there is the most devastating feeling to me. I am devastated for her. Since February, I would like to think that my life changed drastically when my mom got sick and since I have not gone a day without saying I love you to her, when I see her I hug her every chance I can, and I try to never once forget to appreciate and thank God for putting this amazing woman in my life. This amazing woman that if I ever lost I don't know what I would do. I would lose the ability to function, she is the color in my life and inspires me daily to look for the best in all situations, days and people. My mother, is my hero. She is so beautiful, on the outside but especially on the inside. She has a heart of gold and a lovely soul. If you read this and don't know her, you should. She has this amazing capacity to love which resembles Christs so intelligently. And to think of my life without this woman, this incredibly woman just hurts me to the core. So please, if you are reading this, pray for Christabel, pray for her family, and hug your mommy every chance you can.

"All that I am or ever hope to be--I owe it all to my mother"

........switching gears here...This weekend was epic! Friday night we saw Chris Brown at a private concert in long beach. He is GORGEOUS and I would gladly have his babies haha. But unfortunately there were so many people pushing and shoving that I had a panic attack, started shaking, my knees locked and I couldn't move. My lovely friend helped me to the bathroom from where we could hear the rest of the concert. It was fun anyway.

And the next night we went clubbing which was seriously SO much fun. It's about time I got out and started living it up anyway.