OK so here's the thing...I'm a little bit frustrated because I am feeling betrayed. Now I have dealt with betrayal before, from friends and sometimes even family I have felt betrayed. But now I'm feeling betrayed by my own body. For some reason, it's not doing its job and I hate that. I know I need to be patient and wait for the tests to come back, it's just I'm scared they will all come back negative. If this is what stress does to me then I am pretty much screwed for the next four years and don't know how I will make it. Four years (ok, three and a half at this point) seems so daunting when I physically feel like I am an 87 year old who has been hit by a truck, with random sore throats and headaches thrown in for good measure. My body is failing me when I need it the most and I don't know what I can do about it.
"...But he said to me "My Grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties, for when I am weak I am strong."
This Is My Food Freedom
9 years ago
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Ok... I know it is tough, but maybe this will help. It's not your body! Your body belongs to God and you have to trust that He knows what he is doing with it. Just take it easy and relax. You have way too much going on and on top of all of that you are worrying that something is wrong which will make any minor issue a huge problem...
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